thought process: body image daily life history photos thinking
by ammre
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I was bald once.
With nearly any picture you see of me you can most likely tell at what point in my life you’re at simply by the color and length of my hair. It’s constantly changing. The most interesting by far though had to be being bald.
nowhere to hide
I had hair that was mid back length. It was dyed black. I quite liked having long hair but I was looking to change it and black would NEVER come out of my hair, so I’d have to grow it again if the change was to be the color. So instead I changed the length…
long black hair (with brass under streaks)
I had my hair chopped off and donated it to locks of love. It was a good experience.
chop it off!
Since I had my hair at shoulder length… I was curious to go further. I was in college, I didn’t have to impress anyone for a job, so I felt that if I was to do something drastic, this was totally the time. I needed my hair to grow out anyway, so…
the cut before the shave
I had my friends help and one late February day we chopped of all my hair, buzzed then shaved off the rest.
One of my main motivators was that I was curious to know how it FELT to be bald. The last time I was bald I was being cut out of my mom’s stomach. Really I don’t remember that. I wish I had known about the charity thing you can do with getting sponsors to shave your head. I should have done that and at least helped some sick kids in the process. Ahh maybe next time…
the back was lumpy and funny looking, the front looked good though.
So what did it feel like? Cold. Like someone rubbed menthol all over my head. The rest of my skin was registering as normal temperature but this newly exposed skin was now unused to the temperature.
The social reaction was interesting too. I did this just before V for Vendetta came out so I got a lot of comments about being inspired by Natalie Portman. To be honest I didn’t know her head got shave until someone mentioned to me AFTER I did it. Other comments ranged from “that’s awesome” to “why the hell would you do that” and even someone went so far to say “why do you want to make yourself look like a boy” (they were drunk but they definitely got some interesting food for thought on that one.)
It was a good experience and I’d recommend it for anyone.
Hello girl,
I just want to tell you that you’re beautiful with your head completely shaved, I like u so much (beautiful eyes and head, body etc),
bye bye bb (kiss)
Hi, Ammre, I have to say you look absolutely beautiful, especially with your head shaved.
I used to go out with a larger girl who had a Tank Girl haircut (shaved but for a forelock at the front), I reckon that would suit you too.
Forget about people who can’t see beauty in all shapes and sizes, you’re worth more than that
Jason
I had my had shaved once, it was awesome and frightening, I loved the physical feeling of it and I couldn’t stop touching my head for weeks afterward, the frightening thing was not having the hair to hide behind. I don’t really do much of the other “girly” stuff like shape my eyebrows, wear make up and so on, having a shaved head meant that there was very little in my appearance (aside of being short and having breasts) that indicate “woman”, it got me to really see myself in a different way, and also, people’s reactions were pretty shocking.
eventually, i grew it back cause my ex kept saying how beautiful it was before and it pissed me off so much I made an agreement with him that I’ll grow it back if he stops pestering me about it.
I agree with you, I think it’s something any woman should experience.
What would be the equivalent for men?