We can watch movies, or look at interesting things online. There will be a sleeping cat or two. There should be hot coco or tea. Our bodies will touch somehow, perhaps our knees relax toward each other, or maybe we are snuggled into each other. A trip to the playground happened earlier. The cold we endured there was what prompted the hot drinks which you told me to make. This too I want… Do you need the brutal humiliating sex? Do I need it? Who needs the comfort of a normal and cozy day? I can’t tell where one begins and the other ends. I know I want column a, column b, and heck any of the other columns from c to zed. Can I enjoy them if I don’t believe that it is what you truly want? I do not think so. I do know I think of them though.